Update

Well, in the unlikely event that I had any regular readers, I’m very sorry for my long silence. I’ll try to give a brief update to explain what’s been going on…
So, I’m in NYC now working for a hedge fund. It’s really awesome. I love it there and I will probably continue to work there after I graduate (if they’ll have me, which seems likely). The only problem is that I am working pretty long hours, and by the time I get home I am physically and mentally tired and I just want to sit around, read a bit, and sleep. On weekends I hang out with my friends, do errands, and rest. It means I hardly have time for writing, or even for casual blogging.

I have had some interesting experiences to do with relationships. There was this girl that I thought was awesome. But she’s actually married. So forget that. But she is still awesome, and luckily she likes me too so now I have another good friend. It is not easy for me to find someone who is quiet and doesn’t like to do much besides be with friends and talk about things. I don’t like doing “normal” stuff like going out to clubs and movies and whatnot.

I also decided I basically have no hope with girls. It’s already too late. Already most of the girls I meet are already in a serious relationship, and it’s impossible for someone who’s physically unattractive to have any luck from “dating services” (eg online dating sites, speed dating, etc). People like to tell me that I’m a great guy and eventually I’ll find someone for me. But really they are saying “I wouldn’t date you, but you’re a good friend, so maybe there’s a chance.” There’s no chance. There are only more people waiting to give me the same assurance, to take just my friendship and shift my hopes on to some other girl.

“Nice guys finish last”, they say. Well, I can learn to live in solitude. I think people are made to love, and perhaps more so myself than other people, but I can give my love to my friends and that will be enough for me. I will work hard and I will be wealthy and I will use my position to keep myself comfortable, to live a life full of (solitary) experience, and most of all to bring joy and comfort to my friends.

So these are the things that have happened in my life lately. Don’t expect frequent posting to resume at least until the fall semester starts. I just don’t have the energy or inspiration to write after work. Maybe I’ll write a bit about my travels once I am going on them during July. And perhaps some ideas will strike me from time to time. We shall see.